I’m not depressed this year, but my heart still hurts…
It never ceases to amaze me
But the amount of time that has elapsed…
This shit still can’t be real
April showers, damn that’s right
Cuz there is nothing that will stop the tears that flow
I lost my grandmother to cancer
I wish it was just a sign
I lost my dear friend to sickle-cell
Complications; deaths scythe
The pain never dissipates
How deceitful life is
It gives breathtaking vibrance
To cover shameless malevolence
Someone stole my tablet…
It had my pics of Tim on it
Thank God for FaceBook
And just one chance
To go back in time
Relive that one last hug
From Grama, before goodbye…
You two are my STARLIGHT
I look to the skies
I think about the days
The days I got the news
I shake my head
The weight of disbelief
Can you fathom how I feel?
Can you imagine my disgust with life?
I wanted to give my last touch
LIKE YOU’LL NEVER SEE ME AGAIN
I look to the skies
I see you FLYGUY
I see you Grama
I know I’m okay…
I look to the skies.
That was completely off the dome. Written for Marie Felder Rollock (Ascended 4.20.08) and Timothy Peter Lawhorn (Ascended 4.27.10). I still cannot believe that physically speaking to these 2 angels in disguise, is out of the question. I can’t give my Grama a call. I can’t hit Tim up for a pick me up. It’s still so surreal.
But life goes on and I will be there this weekend to see the both of you. It’s still mind-boggling that you are in the same cemetery too. I kind of forgot. Nonetheless, I will see you both. I can’t wait, but I dread it. All because I cannot hear you. I can’t hear you. It still hurts to say.
I love you both. Sleep In Peace.
Follow US on Twitter: @audioEMIT & @Breuckelen_
LIKE Us on FaceBook: https://www.facebook.com/audioEMIT
Subscribe to our YouTube: http://www.youtube.com/user/audioEMIT/featured
- Still Bumpin’: Best Rapper Alive – Lil Wayne (audioemit.com)
- New Video: Nobody’s Perfect – J Cole Feat Missy Elliott (audioemit.com)
- 2 Cents: Whitney Houston Autopsy Report Released (audioemit.com)
- Tell Your Story: Lone Wolf… David E. Beats (audioemit.com)
- Spiffy T. Hobbs… Get Into That West Coast Flow… (audioemit.com)
- New Hip Hop: AL BASICS – Shifts of a Rubik’s Cube & A Capella Rap (audioemit.com)
- The Material Girl LOVES “The Girls” in Girl Gone Wild (audioemit.com)
Subscribe to The UNDR.GRND
Beginning April 2015 & starting with our March 2015 content, AEMNYC will feature exclusive content for readers who sign up for our monthly newsletter. Signing up for the newsletter will give you the password to use for all exclusive content on the site!
You'll also get a sneak peek of everything coming for the next month!